Wednesday, December 26, 2007
The New Plan
Well, we finally had a sit-down meeting with the doctor today. Dave was originally scheduled to receive his eighth infusion of Rituxan in the outpatient clinic today, but Monday's bloodwork showed an ominous drop in his Hematocrit, Neutrophils, Lymphocytes and Platelets. The Neutrophils were the most alarming - down to 228 in absolute numbers. As soon as the results came (via automatic email from the Lab) yesterday afternoon, Dave became agitated and by evening he was having a real meltdown. We hadn't heard from the doctor in three weeks, in spite of Dave's repeated emails and phone calls expressing his concern and asking to for more information (like, what's going on and what's the plan?) Dave was scheduled to meet with the doctor today, after the Rituxan infusion, so we figured our questions would have to wait until then.
This morning, as we were getting dressed to go to the hospital, Dave got a call from the clinic saying that there had been a change of plans. He was supposed to come in earlier, to get a Bone Marrow Biopsy, then meet with the doctor, and then the Rituxan infusion, maybe - the doctor would discuss it with him. Dave had been relentlessly mulling over the possible scenarios for the last 24 hours, and this just added to the speculation. But as we wolfed down some breakfast, Dave concluded that the doctor was sure to cancel the Rituxan infusion, so he decided we didn't need to pack any lunches for the day. He was nervous about the Bone Marrow Biopsy, but figured it was for the best, because then maybe the doctor would tell us something and at least he wouldn't have to sit in the infusion chair for 3 hours, getting Rituxan.
When we got to the Oncology Clinic, we didn't have to wait long, and Dave was called in soon after we arrived. But instead of taking him to the procedure room (where they do the biopsies) we were ushered into the doctor's exam room. We waited there a long time (or it seemed that way to us.) When the doctor came in, she asked him how he's been doing since she saw him last month - he's actually been feeling pretty good, and the only changes have been some mild night sweats during the last few days. Then Dave asked her what was going on with his dropping blood counts and she said that the bone marrow was depressed and that she didn't really know why. It could be the Rituxan, but maybe not. She had changed her mind and decided against the Bone Marrow Biopsy because it wouldn't really show much, with his marrow so depressed. But she wanted to go ahead with the Rituxan infusion for today. Dave wanted to know why. She said she wanted to go after those last few cancers cells lurking around in his body. Dave said he was worried about the Neutrophils going down. She said she was worried about it too, in fact everyone at the clinic was worried about him. I wanted to know how much lower Dave's counts could safely go. At that point, she said that he didn't have to have the Rituxan if he didn't want to - it was up to him. She said it could go either way, and she would be OK with whichever he decided. He asked her again about the Rituxan and what it was doing. Then he looked at me. I agreed that it was tempting to want to get those last cancer cells, but I also was concerned about his Neutropenia - I told him it was his decision. He said that he wanted to skip the Rituxan for today (later he told me that he had already made up his mind that he didn't want any more Rituxan and that he was relieved that she made it easy for him to refuse it.)
When she asked if we had any more questions, I wanted to know how we could get in touch with her. She gave us a new phone number - her case manager - and told us to call that number when we had questions.
The latest new plan: Give Dave's bone marrow a "rest." Check it with a bone marrow biopsy at the end of January. No more weekly blood draws - check it in two weeks, mainly to make sure the Hematocrit isn't falling too fast. Keep taking infection-avoidance precautions.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Onward
Dave's treatment continues . . . Rituxan infusions, weekly - he's getting infusion #3(of 6) as we speak. Plus he had 4 infusions in the months prior, for a total of 7 Rituxan infusions, so far. Neutrophils are improving slightly, but still waaaaaaay too low. He's feeling pretty good, in spite of everything. The doctor still has not responded to Dave's request for information.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Keeping it simple
Dave was scheduled for more Rituxan today, but he didn't go in for it. His Absolute Neutrophil count is 225 (last week was 429) and his Absolute Lymphocyte count is 630 (last week was 605.) He left messages for his doctor yesterday morning and again this morning expressing concern about his low white counts, but no one returned his calls. He also called the Oncology Clinic this morning and left a message saying he didn't want more treatment until he'd talked to someone. But we didn't hear anything until someone called to ask why he wasn't at his appointment.
A that point, the explanations given for his low white counts were, "don't know" and "it's the disease process." Nevertheless, Dave was strongly encouraged to come in for another Rituxan treatment, because "the doctor wants you to have it" and "it will help cure the disease and then the Neutrophils will recover." Right. This kind of vague, bullshit, baby-talk drives me absolutely nuts. It's taking all of my self control right now to not turn into a raving bitch.
Deep breath.
So now, we're headed back to the hospital tomorrow for another Rituxan treatment. Stay tuned.
A that point, the explanations given for his low white counts were, "don't know" and "it's the disease process." Nevertheless, Dave was strongly encouraged to come in for another Rituxan treatment, because "the doctor wants you to have it" and "it will help cure the disease and then the Neutrophils will recover." Right. This kind of vague, bullshit, baby-talk drives me absolutely nuts. It's taking all of my self control right now to not turn into a raving bitch.
Deep breath.
So now, we're headed back to the hospital tomorrow for another Rituxan treatment. Stay tuned.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Mystery of the Disappearing White Cells
Well, Dave had his Rituxin today, even though his White Blood Count was still down, and in fact seems to be dropping for some mysterious reason. I scoured the internet and asked friends in the medical field ('tho not anyone in the CLL specialty) and I wasn't able to come up with any explanations. I asked Dave's doctor today, and she said, "I can't explain it."
His Neutrophils and Platelets both took big hits this past week (his absolute Neutrophil count is only 429, platelets down about 20 per cent but still normal at 169.) The Lymphocytes are down slightly, to 605. This is in spite of the fact that he has had no Fludarabine since September 19th and he hasn't had Rituxin since November 7th.
Strangely, his Red Blood Cells are improving - his Hematocrit is up to 28.5, so it's not like his bone marrow is giving up the ghost.
His doctor wants to go ahead with the next round of Rituxan, which means he'll be going in once a week for the next 6 weeks for more infusions. And they said to stop the Prednisone (he's only been getting 15mg/week for the last few weeks.)
He's still getting his blood drawn every week, so we await next week's results with some anxiety . . . or at least, I do (I hate not knowing what's going on.) Dave is confident that things are going just fine.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
CLL Drug Legislation
This is from Chaya Venkat of CLL Topics:
We have written before on the potential value of radioimmunotherapy (RIT) drugs such as Bexxar and Zevalin to CLL patients. In fact, we are monitoring with interest an important trial at the Hutchinson Cancer Center (Seattle) using Bexxar for MRD clearance in CLL patients. Here are links to our previous articles, for your quick reference:
Radioimmunotherapy is Underappreciated
Reimbursement cuts may sink RIT
Bexxar trial for CLL
With recent rulings by Medicare, we are in imminent danger of losing access to both of these drugs. Our sister organization www.lymphomation.org and its founder Karl Schwartz have been very active in trying to mobilize patient support for these two important drugs, and today is the day to make a couple of phone calls to your government representatives on this subject. I strongly urge you to support this initiative, and add your voice to the other patients trying to keep these therapy options for all of us. Please call Senator Max Baucus, as well as the senator from your state. The contact information is given below for your convenience. What should you say to these senators? Something along these lines, with as much gusto as you can muster:
“I am a cancer patient/caregiver and I'm calling about the CMS RULING that will cut reimbursement and therefore DENY ACCESS to potentially life saving radioimmunotherapy drugs Bexxar and Zevalin ... Please do what you can to fix this ruling before the end of the year. ....”
Senator Max Baucus (Montana) *
511 Hart Senate Office Bldg.
Washington, D.C. 20510
(202) 224-2651
(202) 224-0515 (Fax)
webmail: http://baucus.senate.gov/contact/emailForm.cfm?subj=issue
Majority Members
John D. "Jay"Rockerfeller IV (D-WV)
Jocelyn Moore: 202-224-6472
Kent Conrad (D-ND)
Lindsey Henjum: 202-224-2043
Jeff Bingaman (D-NM)
Frederick Isasi: 202-224-5521
John F. Kerry (D-MA)
Chris Dawe: 202-224-2742
Blanche Lincoln (D-AR)
Ashley Ridlon: 202-224-4843
Ron Wyden (D-OR)
Nicole Tapay: 202-224-5244
Chuck Schumer (D-NY)
Meghan Taira: 202-224-6542
Debbie Stabenow (D-MI)
Oliver Kim: 202-224-4822
Maria Cantwell (D-WA)
Dale Chung: 202-224-3441
Ken Salazar (D-CO)
Piper Su: 202-224-5852
Minority Members
Orrin Hatch ( R-UT)
Pattie L. DeLoatche : 202-224-6306
Trent Lott (R-MS)
Emily Chandler: 202-224-6253
Olympia J. Snowe (R-ME)
Bill Pewen: 202-224-5344
Jon Kyl (R-AZ)
Jennifer romans: 202-224-4521
Gordon H. Smith (R-OR)
Lindsay Morris: 202-228-5862
Jim Bunning (R-KY)
Holly Santry: 202-224-4343
Mike Crapo (R-ID)
Katie Oppenheim: 202-224-6142
Pat Roberts (R-KS)
Jennifer Swenson: 202-224-4774
John Ensign (R-NV)
Andrew Shaw: 202-224-6244
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
A Small Victory
"I think we should just declare victory and be done with the Fludarabine," is what the doctor said this morning. Dave's white blood cell counts were (once again) too low for chemo, even too low for Rituxan. It's been almost two months since he had his last (fifth) round of Fludarabine. Since that time, he's had a severe bout with Autoimmune Hemolytic Anemia, but that seems to have slowed, maybe stopped - the doc thinks it was the Rituxan that put the brakes on the anemia (plus wiped out a good chunk of white blood cells.)
So the new plan is to continue with the weekly blood tests and plan to give him Rituxan now and then, when his blood levels allow it. She didn't actually say, "now and then" - she proposed some complicated schedule that I didn't bother to write down because I'm 99 percent certain that it'll change before we get to it. The bottom line is that, unless some unexpected disaster happens in the next few weeks, Dave will get his next dose of Rituxan on December 5th. It could take months for his red blood cells to get near normal.
But he has an amazing capacity for adapting to the anemia. When we were in Los Angeles recently, he walked all over town with me, including up the steps at Angel's Flight (that's him, above, watching the parrots half-way up the hill.) We both took a lot of photos in L.A. Mine are up on my Flickr page now; Dave is still scanning his film and will probably post something later today. Dave's also writing for the new group blog, Bay Area Artquake!
I probably won't be updating this spot until Dave's next treatment (December 5th.) Meanwhile you can keep up with us at our usual spots:
Dave's Photo Blog
Dave's Flickr Page
Anna's Art Blog
Anna's Flickr Page
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
So Far, So Good
Dave seems to be holding on to his red blood cells this week. He feels pretty decent, and his Hematocrit yesterday was 24 - he hasn't been that high since July! If he ever gets up to normal (40 to 50) he's going to feel like Superman.
So we're going ahead with the Los Angeles trip - see you next week.
So we're going ahead with the Los Angeles trip - see you next week.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Halloween at the Clinic
Dave & I were standing at the corner of 9th & Judah this morning, waiting for a bus to the hospital, when I looked over and saw . . . I wasn't sure what it was at first . . . a view through an apartment window, of a TV screen so enormous a small section of it filled the window. Expanded entertainment with the morning commute.
Anyway, it was the usual whole day in the infusion clinic. Dave got blood and Rituxan, tolerated them both with no problems, but the Benadryl (pre-med) has him pretty zonked out.
Plans for the immediate future: Reduce the Prednisone even more. Check the Hematocrit again in a week, get more blood then if necessary. Try again in two weeks to get the Fludarabine & Mitoxantrone.
No one at the hospital has anything useful to say about Dave's skin problems. We're figuring it out on our own.
Be careful out there tonight!
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
New Plan
Dave's blood work from yesterday showed that his anemia is coming back - of course we knew that (the shortness of breath, the dizziness, the pounding heart.) And the blood test showed a slight increase in his Neutrophils and Lymphocytes. But the White Blood Cell count is still on the low side - 1.9 K/uL.
So the doc has decided to postpone the Fludarabine and Mitoxantrone again. Dave is scheduled to get another infusion of Rituxan (which so far he's tolerated very well) tomorrow. He's also going to get another blood transfusion, but we're not sure if it will be tomorrow or later in the week.
Then there's the skin problem - Dave's been dealing with an annoying acne-like rash for weeks, and after much trial and error, we think it may be a fungal infection. Luckily, you can find over-the-counter remedies for that, but maybe someone at the infusion clinic tomorrow will have a better idea.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Postponed Again
Dave's doctor told him today that she wants to postpone the sixth (and final) infusion of Fludarabine once again. She said his white count was still too low.
I was happy to hear the news, since a.) the Fludarabine does very nasty things to Dave while it's killing those cancer cells, and b.) he's still not completely recovered from the last dose (which was mid-September.) Plus, in looking at his bloodwork this morning, I thought I could see a glimmer of hope that maybe his bone marrow was starting to recover.
But Dave saw it differently and took the news pretty hard. He's been dreading this last dose, because of how sick it made him the last time, and he just wants it to be over with. Every week that it gets postponed, the apprehension increases.
So we're going out for Mexican food tonight. It's been months since Dave could tolerate his favorite foods (the chemo strips his stomach lining so things like tomatoes and hot peppers hurt too much to eat, plus he can't taste much.) Now it's been long enough, since that last chemo, that he figures he can try some tamales. So we're going to L'Avenida.
(Image is a plate of tamales and nopales tunas, made here at home a while back.)
Monday, October 22, 2007
Seach engine for CLL
I just found this cool new variation on Google, called Cllgle, which was configured by Andy Nathan in the UK. It's a way to search prominent CLL & medical sites for information without getting billions of nonsense responses from the rest of the internet.
Here's the LINK. I also put it in the sidebar for future use.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Waiting
Dave has been hoping this would be his last regularly scheduled week of chemo, but it's been postponed, due to low neutrophil counts. The doc also said that the Fludarabine has not been working as well as she'd hoped, but that it was doing 70% of the job. The new plan is to do one last round with Fludarabine next week, then continue with Rituxan for an undetermined number of months. He might need another transfusion before the Fludarabine - we'll find next Monday when he gets his blood drawn again.
We asked about the upcoming trip to Los Angeles, which Dave has really been looking forward to. . . it's only three weeks away. She said he could come in for another transfusion right before we left, so that he he'll have enough energy to leave the hotel room.
But first he has to get past the next chemo session and its aftermath, which could be rough. We'll just have to wait and see how it goes. He's been having some gastric problems, so she ordered a new drug - Pepcid. And she reduced his Prednisone again.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Holding Steady
That last transfusion seems to holding steady, as least as far as the symptoms are concerned. Dave went back to work yesterday, and today he's getting another blood draw on his way home, just to make sure things are copacetic.
(Image above - as soon as Dave felt well enough to walk around, he headed out to the Inner Sunset to get his film developed, and shoot more pictures.)
(Image above - as soon as Dave felt well enough to walk around, he headed out to the Inner Sunset to get his film developed, and shoot more pictures.)
Friday, October 5, 2007
Three Days of Rest
Well, we're back from the hospital - Dave got two more units of blood. I asked his nurse if she thought this might get his hematocrit over 20, and she said, "maybe." Now he has three days to rest up, with an anticipated return to work on Tuesday. A friend loaned him a sack full of movie DVDs and we were home less than 10 minutes when he had "The Magnificent Seven" playing. So Dave's set for the weekend. I'll be at the Bluegrass Festival - actually I'm thinking of riding my bike over there now. . .
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Love Those Red Blood Cells
Jeeze, it's been a tough week, but things are looking a little brighter this evening.
Dave was still pretty weak this morning. I did a few "tests" with him: checking his pulse before & after certain activities to see if his cardiac recovery time was adequate - and it was, although his resting rate is still significantly elevated, compared to a few months ago. And he tried walking four blocks to see if he could tolerate it - which he could, but just barely. He was out of bed all day, which is an improvement, but he's still very pale and his lips are blue.
We contacted his doctor and they had him come in for another blood draw. And shortly after the blood draw, we got a call from the clinic telling him to come in tomorrow morning for more blood.
The best news is the lab results from today:
WBC 0.5 (about the same)
RBC 1.84
Hgb 6.2
Hct 17.8 (better, but not good enough)
Platelets 110 (low, but much better - I had told him that "Anna's Rule" is that he could not ride public transportation with a platelet count under 100)
Neutrophils 23% (wow! way better!)
Lymphocytes 76% (lower than before)
Anyway, we have a ride to the clinic set up for tomorrow morning, so by Saturday he should be feeling a lot better.
Remember Burma
Detained pro-democracy leader, Aung San Suu Kyi, appeared at her front gate yesterday as several hundred courageous monks marched through barricades blocking access to her home in Rangoon.
LINKS:
Chevron and Burma
Photos from a "brave Burmese living in Rangoon," who cannot be identified right now.
What's the Story with Burma?
BBC Profile of Burma
New York Times on Burma
Huffington Post on Burma
Independent Media looks at Burma
US Campaign for Burma
Human Rights Watch on Burma
Democracy Now on Burma
Amnesty International on Burma
LINKS:
Chevron and Burma
Photos from a "brave Burmese living in Rangoon," who cannot be identified right now.
What's the Story with Burma?
BBC Profile of Burma
New York Times on Burma
Huffington Post on Burma
Independent Media looks at Burma
US Campaign for Burma
Human Rights Watch on Burma
Democracy Now on Burma
Amnesty International on Burma
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Treating the Symptoms
Yesterday (Tuesday) was exhausting (for both of us.) A nurse at the infusion clinic called at 8:30am and told Dave to come down right away for some blood. We were both up, dressed, done with breakfast, and waiting for the call. But due to transportation problems, we didn't get there until 10:30am. Which means, the blood didn't actually get started until nearly noon. Which means, it didn't finish until almost 3pm. Which means, we got home about 4pm (later for me, since I had some errands to finish.)
Dave was so weak, he was barely upright. When the infusion nurse saw him, she said, "Hmm, you do look a bit pasty - do you need to lay down?" Luckily, he was able to spend most of the day in a soft chair with his head back and his feet elevated, dozing off & on. After he got settled at the infusion clinic, I took off to look for soft bland foods that would not hurt his mouth or stomach but would provide him with some electrolytes and protein. Plus it had to be low fat, and vegan. And I had to find some pain meds and other odds & ends, from several different sources. It was a challenge, but I think we're stocked up pretty well, now.
Dave is finally reaching the threshold of his needle-stick tolerance. He's been stuck 15 to 18 times per month for the last 6 months and at least 3 of those times each month he gets IV chemo through that vein. He's had more hematomas on his arms than we can count, and the pain is getting worse. He's starting to have nightmares about needlesticks.
He's spending today in bed. He's still weak, lethargic, and got a killer headache. He actually looks feverish, but he doesn't have a fever. He might have a sinus infection. He might be having a mild blood reaction. It's hard to tell what's going on - with a trashed immune system, the usual signs don't apply. So for now, we're just treating the symptoms.
Monday, October 1, 2007
Well, that answers that question
We finally got the lab results back from this morning's blood draw, and it's:
RBC 1.47
Hgb 5.0
Hct 14.5
Platelets 58
WBC 0.5
Neut 7%
Lymph 92%
. . . so I assume we'll be heading to the hospital tomorrow for some more transfusions.
RBC 1.47
Hgb 5.0
Hct 14.5
Platelets 58
WBC 0.5
Neut 7%
Lymph 92%
. . . so I assume we'll be heading to the hospital tomorrow for some more transfusions.
AIHA and Chemo
... not a happy combo. Dave's been up, down, and all around since my last post. At the moment, he's feeling pretty miserable. His mouth is full of ulcers (probably from the chemo,) he's having stomach/abdominal distress (of unknown origin,) he's having tremors and cramps (electrolyte imbalance, due to multiple issues) and he's weak & breathless. I'm guessing his Hematocrit is lower than it's ever been (the lowest so far was 18.)
I took him to the hospital for a blood draw this morning, and we left a message for the doc this afternoon, but we haven't heard anything yet. We're both assuming he'll get another transfusion tomorrow, but we're still waiting for the word . . .
I took him to the hospital for a blood draw this morning, and we left a message for the doc this afternoon, but we haven't heard anything yet. We're both assuming he'll get another transfusion tomorrow, but we're still waiting for the word . . .
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Good News
Sun coming up, under the fog - 41st & Judah at 7am.
The doctor gave us some good news today. Dave's hematocrit is 24 - first time it's been over 20 in about 5 weeks. It's not dropping as fast as it was a few weeks ago. Also, his white count is not rising as fast, between chemo infusions, as it was a few months ago. And he gained 2 pounds this time, instead of losing (he's lost 35 pounds since this thing began.) So the doc feels like we're making progress against the CLL and the AHA.
She's dropping the dose on the Prednisone (from 40 to 20 mg a day.) He'll continue with his previously scheduled infusions of Fludarabine, Mitoxantrone and Rituxan this month and next month. We'd never discussed treatment beyond that point, but Dave has been hoping for a remission (and no more treatment) at the end of six months. So when Dave asked her what happens after next month's infusion, and she said she wanted to continue the Rituxan, and weekly blood counts, I thought he was going to be disappointed. Especially when he asked her, "For how long?" and she said for 2 years!
As we were leaving the hospital, I asked him if he was OK with continuing the Rituxan infusions for 2 years, and he said, "Fuck, YEAH, I'm OK with that - it means she thinks I'm going to live for two years!"
Sunday, September 16, 2007
More Blood
Dave had another transfusion on Friday (two units of Packed Red Blood Cells.) This is his second transfusion and it was much easier for him. He still hates the Benadryl they give before the infusion, because it makes him feel groggy for the rest of the day. And he's not too crazy about spending hours sitting in the infusion clinic, hooked up to an IV. But otherwise, it's not too bad. We had a great weekend - went out to eat three days in a row, and did a little walking on Saturday & Sunday. Now the big question is, how long will this boost last?
Dave's Hematocrit didn't drop quite as fast, this last week, as it did during the previous few weeks. But he's taking a lot of steroids, and he's starting to get hand tremors, so he's hoping to cut back on the Prednisone as soon as possible. Mostly he's annoyed about the fact that the tremors affect his shooting - he used to be rock-steady at really slow shutter speeds and he rarely used tripods. Now's he's having to make adjustments.
This upcoming week is Chemo Week #5. We see the doctor on Tuesday (more bloodwork on Monday) so we're hoping for a serious evaluation of Dave's condition and response to treatment.
Dave's Hematocrit didn't drop quite as fast, this last week, as it did during the previous few weeks. But he's taking a lot of steroids, and he's starting to get hand tremors, so he's hoping to cut back on the Prednisone as soon as possible. Mostly he's annoyed about the fact that the tremors affect his shooting - he used to be rock-steady at really slow shutter speeds and he rarely used tripods. Now's he's having to make adjustments.
This upcoming week is Chemo Week #5. We see the doctor on Tuesday (more bloodwork on Monday) so we're hoping for a serious evaluation of Dave's condition and response to treatment.
Monday, September 10, 2007
New CLL Info
Thanks to Chaya Venkat's excellent advocacy, four CLL experts have posted answers to her questions about stem cell transplants as treatment/cure for CLL. It's too soon for Dave to be pursuing this option, but not too soon to be thinking about & planning for it. Although whenever I mention it to him, he dismisses it with, "They almost never work."
Regarding the question of outcome for this procedure, Dr. Andrew Pettitt wrote:
And Dr. Terry Hamblin wrote:
Regarding the question of outcome for this procedure, Dr. Andrew Pettitt wrote:
There are essentially three possible outcomes following allografting: (1) the disease is cured; (2) the disease is not cured but the patient survives the procedure; and (3) the procedure itself is fatal. It is always difficult to assign each of these outcomes with a precise probability value. However, taking an ‘average’ CLL patient (of course there is no such thing) who is in a reasonable remission (whatever this means), I find it helpful to think in terms of a ‘rule of fifths’, i.e. there is a 3-in-5 chance of the transplant working, a 1-in-5 chance of the disease relapsing, and a 1-in-5 chance of the transplant shortening the patient’s life due to complications. These figures are only crude approximations of the available data but nevertheless give patients and their families something simple and tangible to chew over. ... Another extremely important issue to be factored into the equation is that, irrespective of the final outcome, the procedure is very likely to have a negative impact on quality of life for a year or more owing to frequent hospital attendances and the problems associated with graft-versus-host disease (GVHD) and infection.
And Dr. Terry Hamblin wrote:
What makes CLL so much worse than other conditions for which mini-allografts are performed is how immunosuppressed the patients are before the transplant. Patients with CLL are immunodeficient from the start in a way that patients with say, MDS are not. Fludarabine, (the drug that that Dave has been getting - Anna) is extremely immunosuppressive, producing AIDS-like levels of CD4+ cells for around 2 years. If the patient has been previously exposed to CMV or EBV (which Dave has - Anna) the reactivation of one of these herpes viruses is on the cards. Most guidelines have suggested that allografting should be reserved for patients refractory to fludarabine containing regimens or those who relapse within one year. This seemed like good advice at the time, since the risks of transplant in CLL are so great that one would not want to expose a patient to them if there was a reasonable chance of prolonged good quality life on immunochemotherapy alone. Remember that before mini-allo's, allografts in CLL carried a treatment related mortality of 40%. It had been hoped that mini-allo's would reduce this, but on what has been revealed so far, this has not been the case.
I Guess It was Inevitable
I've still got fading symptoms of a mild flu, but in spite of my efforts not to spread it to Dave, I think he's coming down with it now. He's also suffering from mouth ulcers and mild digestive problems . . . otherwise, things are OK around here.
He's scheduled for more labwork tomorrow and another round of chemo next week.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Go Figure
Dave was at the hospital today, getting a follow-up blood test, to see how many of those new red blood cells are still hanging around. He's not as pale or short of breath, as he was before the transfusion, but he is having significant fatigue. So we're curious to see what the bloodwork shows (we'll know tomorrow, maybe.)
While we were there, he also tried to fill another prescription for Famciclovir. Remember the problem he had last time? Different aggravation this time. I'll let Dave explain it to you:
While we were there, he also tried to fill another prescription for Famciclovir. Remember the problem he had last time? Different aggravation this time. I'll let Dave explain it to you:
Thursday, August 30, 2007
If It ain't one thing, it's another.
Dave's transfusion went well - no reactions. He actually has a little color in his face and he goes up the stairs at a pretty good clip, with no shortness of breath.
On the other hand . . .
Last night we spent three hours in the SF General Emergency department. Got home about 1am. This time I was the patient. I've been sick for a few days, but Dave was afraid I was getting pneumonia or worse (turned out to be just a garden-variety upper respiratory infection.) When I was getting ready to go to bed for the night, he suddenly became alarmed and called our friend Pam to drive us to the hospital. I haven't been this sick in about 8 or 10 years, but I figured it was just a cold or the flu. Normally I wouldn't have gone to the ER for something like this but I could see that he was terrified and he was likely to stay up all night hovering over me. He relaxed after he heard a couple of doctors say it wasn't pneumonia or a heart attack. While we were waiting for my discharge papers, he looked around and said with a smile, "Steve McQueen was here." (Actually Bullitt was filmed in the older wing.)
So now he's headed off to work, a little late today. I'm in "quarantine," sleeping on the daybed in the studio, so that I don't pass this bug along to the rest of the household.
Weirdly, this trip to SF General happened on a day when the local paper ran a column about how people manage without health insurance. They included a quote from me about using the free clinics and SF General. The waiting rooms at General can be a trial, but I've always had excellent care there. I feel really lucky to be living in San Francisco, with top-notch medical centers and plenty of options for the uninsured.
(Image at top is a view of the Bullitt-era SF General. via)
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Short Update
Dave is at the hospital now, getting a couple of units of blood. (His Hematocrit was down to 17 yesterday.) I'm here at home, with the flu, or something like it. He was pretty nervous about getting this transfusion and wanted me to sit with him while he got it, but not only am I feeling really lousy, but I was worried about infecting him and other patients in the infusion clinic. A friend dropped him off at the hospital this morning. His ride home is not firmed up yet, but something will work out. He did amazingly well with so few red blood cells, so I expect him to be feeling great when gets home this afternoon. More later . . .
Thursday, August 23, 2007
First Round Done
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Time to Start Rituxan
Dave, heading into Star Photo (616 Irving; 415-681-2445) to get his film developed. He stops by so often, he's on a first name basis with all the guys in there. He's still shooting up a storm, in spite of an anemia so severe that he gets light-headed if he stands up too quickly.
This was a long day at the clinic. As I suspected, his bloodwork yesterday was not good. The anemia was the worst it's ever been. On the other hand, his platelets and lymphs were slightly improved (not nearly enough, but at least they didn't get any worse.)
So it looks like he's stuck with Prednisone therapy for the foreseeable future (to slow the destruction of his red blood cells.) He's starting to get some muscle-wasting, but none of the other nasty side effects have surfaced.
After three months of Chemo, the Fludarabine/Mitoxantrone is really kicking his bone marrow but it's not doing a whole lot to the cancerous lymphocytes, so the new plan is to add Rituxan. Rituxan is a monoclonal antibody which specifically targets mature B Lymphocytes (as opposed to ordinary chemo which kills a lot of "innocent bystander" cells.) This is good news, in my opinion - I was hoping they would try Rituxan soon. But of course, Rituxan has its own sticky wickets, and the first one comes up tomorrow when Dave gets his first dose of Rituxan.
The infusion will take 6 hours (they told him to "pack a lunch.") Rituxan causes fairly serious allergic reactions in a lot of people, so Dave may need to be treated for that. Plus, the Rituxan is expected to kill the lymphocytes pretty quickly and when the dead lymphs start spilling toxins into his bloodstream, he'll be at risk for Tumor Lysis Syndrome.
Once he gets through the first dose, he'll be scheduled for repeat doses once a month, and then every 6 weeks or so, for . . . awhile (not sure how long - no point getting fixated on a long-term schedule, these days.)
But, back to the anemia. Next week Dave is scheduled for a blood transfusion - unless his RBCs manage to rally between now and then.
Blood work today:
WBC - 7.2
RBC - 1.57
Hemaglobin - 6.4
Hematocrit - 18.8
MCV - 120
Platelets - 139
Seg Neuts - 1%
Lymphs - 88%
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Auto Immune Hemolytic Anemia
AIHA is the current problem - in addition to the CLL, of course. Dave has had some ups and downs the last few weeks, and he's due to start Chemo again tomorrow. But I'm not convinced that his blood counts are adequate (that he can withstand a round of chemo.) The doctor has been increasing his Prednisone, but based on his appearance, I have a feeling his counts are down again. He had more blood drawn this morning, so tomorrow morning, when we meet with the doctor, we'll know for sure.
Last week's blood work:
WBC - 3.5
RBC - 1.64
Hemaglobin - 6.8
Hematocrit - 20.3
MCV - 124
Platelets - 78
Seg Neuts - 3%
Lymphs - 97%
Last week's blood work:
WBC - 3.5
RBC - 1.64
Hemaglobin - 6.8
Hematocrit - 20.3
MCV - 124
Platelets - 78
Seg Neuts - 3%
Lymphs - 97%
Thursday, August 2, 2007
More About Fatigue
(Dave has been feeling better the last couple of days, and his blood work is improving, too. In fact, he says he's got more energy now than at any time since his diagnosis. )
Chris Dwyer, of CLL Canada wrote this about CLL-related fatigue:
Chris Dwyer, of CLL Canada wrote this about CLL-related fatigue:
While my life changed drastically after my diagnosis, I did not think I would spend the next four years fighting in court to get disability payments from my government's 'safety net'. A battle I finally lost, due to an "old school" oncologist's statement that the severe fatigue I was experiencing was not linked in any way to CLL. In fact he considered me to be asymptomatic.
Sometime later I took him to task to explain his position and after some excuses he backed down from his position and conceded there may be a link between fatigue and CLL. However the damage had been done in my case.
Later that year, I received a letter from Dr. Michael Keating, a leading CLL researcher at M.D. Anderson, as part of my court appeal. He concluded that CLL fatigue was certainly real for some CLL patients. But it is not fatigue like being tired. Rather the good B-cells in some patients sense that there are immature and malformed B-cells floating around and they set off an alarm to trigger the body's defence mechanisms. Remember how you felt the last time you had the flu or a bad cold? Tired and achy and just wanting to go to bed. Well for some of us with CLL we are 'stuck' in this condition. Finally we have a definite mechanism to explain why some CLL patients suffered from this mind numbing fatigue.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Strange News
I just got word that my first husband died last week. His obit:
Mr.Rodney S. Hill, 57, of Anderson, SC, formerly of Dover, DE., died Tuesday, July, 17th at the M.D. Anderson Cancer Center in Houston, Texas. Mr. Hill lost a long and courageous battle with leukemia with his family and best friend Robert Van De Visser of Denton, Maryland by his side. He was a 1967 graduate of Dover High School and served six years in the U.S. Army Reserves. He was a 1977 graduate of Delaware State University and former Chief of Right of Way of the Delaware Department of Transportation. Mr. Hill most recently retired from Earth Tech Consulting, Inc, where he served as a Program Manager. He was son of the late Rodney S. Hill, Sr., and is survived by his mother, Daisy Hill of Dover, Delaware; his wife of thirty-four years, Barbara; his sons Brian and Blair; his daughter-in-law Jessica; his beloved grandchildren Savanna, Carson, Chase, and Alli; and his brother Rick of Dover, Delaware. His family will hold a private service to celebrate his life. In lieu of flowers the family asks that memorials be sent to The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, 1247 Lake Murray Blvd, Irmo, SC 29063.
Mr.Rodney S. Hill, 57, of Anderson, SC, formerly of Dover, DE., died Tuesday, July, 17th at the M.D. Anderson Cancer Center in Houston, Texas. Mr. Hill lost a long and courageous battle with leukemia with his family and best friend Robert Van De Visser of Denton, Maryland by his side. He was a 1967 graduate of Dover High School and served six years in the U.S. Army Reserves. He was a 1977 graduate of Delaware State University and former Chief of Right of Way of the Delaware Department of Transportation. Mr. Hill most recently retired from Earth Tech Consulting, Inc, where he served as a Program Manager. He was son of the late Rodney S. Hill, Sr., and is survived by his mother, Daisy Hill of Dover, Delaware; his wife of thirty-four years, Barbara; his sons Brian and Blair; his daughter-in-law Jessica; his beloved grandchildren Savanna, Carson, Chase, and Alli; and his brother Rick of Dover, Delaware. His family will hold a private service to celebrate his life. In lieu of flowers the family asks that memorials be sent to The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society, 1247 Lake Murray Blvd, Irmo, SC 29063.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Why Are You So Tired?
How tired can you be? Let me count the ways. I've been paying more attention to this topic lately.
1. Too Many White Blood Cells (aka leukocytosis) - A deep, cosmic fatique. Sleep is more attractive than sex, food, or any kind of entertainment. Night sweats sometimes interrupt that sleep. Which means extra laundry in the morning.
2. Not Enough Red Blood Cells (aka anemia) - You feel like you're wearing lead boots. The smallest muscle twitch is a workout that makes you breathe hard while your heart pounds. Digesting your dinner is hard work. Taking a shower can seem like an Iron Man triathlon. You're exhausted, but not really sleepy, and anyway sleep is difficult, due to the freight train in your ears (sound of your heart pumping harder to get the few remaining cells to circulate a little more.)
3. Your Body Is A Superfund Site (aka chemotherapy/radiation) - When the nurse tells you to protect the rest of your household from your bodily fluids, which are now carcinogenic - you gotta wonder . . . Everything tastes weird, smells weird, and feels weird. It's purple haze time.
4. If This Is Tuesday, This Must Be the Infusion Clinic (aka not enough hours in the day) - suddenly you have a calendar more complicated than a celebrity's, with 8 to 12 new drugs, all on different schedules; appointments with doctors, therapists, labs, clinics, and sometimes lawyers, banks, and insurance representatives.
5. Thinking Hurts. Can I Stop Now? (aka too much new information) - Like cramming for a test, in a foreign country, in a language you don't know, under a deadline you're not sure of, and if you flunk the test - the penalty is great bodily harm, or death. Just zoning out is a great, but feared, temptation.
6. I Don't Like this Cancer Game, Can I Go Home Now? (aka depression) - A zombie takes over your body. It just wants to sleep, when possible, or simply stare at the ceiling, while you remember the life you used to have.
7. The Combo Plate - pick any three of the previous items and throw in an infection, just to keep it interesting.
Friday, July 27, 2007
Half Way Through
Today's chemo was the half-way mark (end of the third monthly session, in a six-month course of treatment.)
This week's experiences at the HMO clinic were discouraging. It's difficult getting info from these folks. You see a different caregiver each time, and you never know who it's going to be. They don't seem to communicate with each other very well. And some days, like today for instance, we get to the designated clinic at the designated time, and no one is at the reception desk. Well, this is not unusual, and the waiting room is full of other patients, so we just take a seat and wait. And wait. More patients arrive. Soon we start comparing notes:
"When was your appointment?"
"Ten minutes ago, and yours?"
"Now."
Then Dave heard the sound of a dot matrix printer, coming from somewhere else on the eighth floor. He went off to investigate and came back with the news that everyone was supposed to check in at the other clinic on the other side of the building. So everyone gets up and troops over there. Dave goes in for his infusion. More patients arrive at the first clinic and start waiting for the non-existent receptionist. This happens frequently. When you see an empty desk, you can never tell if they just stepped away for a bathroom break, or for lunch, or if they're on vacation.
This last round of chemo was harder on Dave than the previous ones. He spent most of Friday in bed (after we got back from the hospital.) I'm not sure what's going on with his blood work because we have not been able to get a copy of the last two reports. I'm not sure what the plan is for his treatment/medications, because no one could answer those questions. I finally got an outside source to answer my question about Dave's CBC from last week - the blood showed, "many lymphocytes with cytoplasmic projections which appear like hairy cells." I was concerned about whether Dave might have Hairy Cell Leukemia. Dr. Terry Hamblin from the acor CLL forum, said that this happens sometimes, but Dave's profile still looks like CLL.
So I was somewhat relieved. But I'm still worried about other stuff. Like, shouldn't they be cutting back on the ProCrit now that his Hct is near 30? (That stuff has some potentially nasty side effects.) And wouldn't it be a good idea to give some more B-12 since it had such a good effect? And how bad is his WBC now (it was climbing into the stratosphere on Tuesday)? We only see the doctor once a month, and the other so-called "avenues of communication" are useless. Right now I'm feeling too worn down to muster the energy to be the kind of pain-in-the-ass that gets her questions answered.
Dave's still looking pretty good:
This week's experiences at the HMO clinic were discouraging. It's difficult getting info from these folks. You see a different caregiver each time, and you never know who it's going to be. They don't seem to communicate with each other very well. And some days, like today for instance, we get to the designated clinic at the designated time, and no one is at the reception desk. Well, this is not unusual, and the waiting room is full of other patients, so we just take a seat and wait. And wait. More patients arrive. Soon we start comparing notes:
"When was your appointment?"
"Ten minutes ago, and yours?"
"Now."
Then Dave heard the sound of a dot matrix printer, coming from somewhere else on the eighth floor. He went off to investigate and came back with the news that everyone was supposed to check in at the other clinic on the other side of the building. So everyone gets up and troops over there. Dave goes in for his infusion. More patients arrive at the first clinic and start waiting for the non-existent receptionist. This happens frequently. When you see an empty desk, you can never tell if they just stepped away for a bathroom break, or for lunch, or if they're on vacation.
This last round of chemo was harder on Dave than the previous ones. He spent most of Friday in bed (after we got back from the hospital.) I'm not sure what's going on with his blood work because we have not been able to get a copy of the last two reports. I'm not sure what the plan is for his treatment/medications, because no one could answer those questions. I finally got an outside source to answer my question about Dave's CBC from last week - the blood showed, "many lymphocytes with cytoplasmic projections which appear like hairy cells." I was concerned about whether Dave might have Hairy Cell Leukemia. Dr. Terry Hamblin from the acor CLL forum, said that this happens sometimes, but Dave's profile still looks like CLL.
So I was somewhat relieved. But I'm still worried about other stuff. Like, shouldn't they be cutting back on the ProCrit now that his Hct is near 30? (That stuff has some potentially nasty side effects.) And wouldn't it be a good idea to give some more B-12 since it had such a good effect? And how bad is his WBC now (it was climbing into the stratosphere on Tuesday)? We only see the doctor once a month, and the other so-called "avenues of communication" are useless. Right now I'm feeling too worn down to muster the energy to be the kind of pain-in-the-ass that gets her questions answered.
Dave's still looking pretty good:
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Quick & Short
Just a brief update to let you know that Dave IS getting chemo this week. His bloodwork on Tuesday looked better in some ways - at least the Red blood cells were up. More bloodwork was done yesterday before the chemo was infused, and he's due for more chemo today and tomorrow. I'll write more this weekend.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Needle Time
OK, new week ahead. Blood tests on Tuesday, then (maybe) chemotherapy to follow. Depends on whether Dave's anemia has improved, or in other words - does he have enough Red Blood Cells to tolerate the intravenous "draino" (Dave's term.)
He's been getting weekly injections of ProCrit and daily injections of B-12 vitamins. Good thing he's not phobic about needles.
In fact, this morning Dave announced that when he goes into remission, he intends to get a tattoo! He wants me to design an image of a Phoenix in flight, carrying a Nikon in his talons.
Speaking of needles . . . last week, we bumped into our friend Jane at the lab. She was also waiting to have some bloodwork done. As a more experienced patient, she gave the Dave the low-down on students versus experienced phlebotomists (don't let the students draw your blood, when you're getting stuck every few days and your veins are getting harder & harder to find.) They both got called into the back at the same time, and a student came up to Jane, who politely asked for a regular staffer. So the student moved over to Dave, who was thinking about what to say and how to say it, when they heard Jane calling out from the other side of the curtain, "He doesn't want a student, either."
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
He must be part Sherpa
Dave is extremely anemic now but he still manages to walk up the hill to and from the hospital, and up & down the stairs at home, with just minimal shortness of breath, and no complaining.
We got to the hospital today and were told that his chemotherapy was canceled for the rest of this week, because his blood counts are too low. As of yesterday afternoon:
WBC 7.5 (and climbing again, after a low of 6.5)
RBC 1.67
HGB 6.5
HCT 19.5 (and dropping rapidly)
Platelets 131
He now has Autoimmune Hemolytic Anemia, so they have started him on high-dose Prednisone. He goes back next week for more blood work and (maybe) more chemo.
(Image is Ang Dorjee Sherpa celebrating his 8th summit of Everest - by Alan Arnette)
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
A Quick Update from Dave
This is Dave, dictating from the easy chair:
I consider today's clinic visit a victory. My doctor straightened out the medication issue with a hand-written prescription to the pharmacist. She was as upset with the situation as we were. While yesterday's blood tests showed that my anemia is a bit worse, I actually feel better than I have in months. While the anemia is a concern, my doctor is taking extraordinary steps to get to the bottom of this issue and remedy it. I do have confidence in my doctor and today Anna expressed the same. It is this HMO system that we really have to work like a dog. We're figuring it out as we go, and it's good to know we have the doctor's full support. I continue to go to work regularly. I'm still photographing. At worst, I just have to take things a lot slower.
It doesn't take much to elevate the stress level. And I suspect it will remain that way until I'm through this round of treatment, which will end in October. Anna seems to feel the stress sooner and more intensely than I do. I think all her years as a nurse have skewed her perspective. Which is understandable, but sometimes too much information can increase anxiety. For example, I once met a guy who worked on the construction of BART's Transbay Tube. To this day, he refuses to ride BART. Now, do I really need to know that? So I am really working at ways to reduce Anna's stress and anxiety.
The bottom line is - things are going pretty darn well. And though there will be frightening moments, the future is looking bright.
Warmest regards,
Dave
Monday, July 16, 2007
Three Little Pills
(So, you might be wondering what happened with the Famciclovir prescription? Long story. I'll spare you details, but we managed to squeeze THREE PILLS out of them - enough to give Dave his regular doses for today and tomorrow morning. Tomorrow afternoon the doctor has to justify the use of this drug with the HMO, before they will agree to cover any more of it ( the HMO would prefer that she choose something cheaper.)
I've spent about 40,000 hours in hospitals - mostly as a nurse, but also as a patient and as friend/family of patients. And the most important piece of advice I can give anyone who needs to enter a hospital (inpatient or outpatient) is this:
Do not ever, ever cross the threshold of a hospital entrance, unless you have a buddy with you.
It's a dangerous, mind-bending universe unto itself. Trust me - you will need help.
(Image: "Modern Master Dissipation" by Andy Diaz Hope - made of an archival photo, cut & stuffed into gel capsules - see it at Catherine Clark Gallery in SF.)
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Round 3
Tomorrow is the first day of this month's "chemo week." Dave has chemotherapy treatments once a month and this is the third month/treatment. Each treatment regimen goes something like this:
"Week 1", Monday - lab tests to see how his liver, kidneys, and bone marrow are holding up to the chemo.
Tuesday - the doctor physically examines him to check on the condition of his lymph nodes, liver, spleen, and so forth. Then she orders the treatments for the next few days.
Wednesday, Thursday, Friday - Chemotherapy infusions and any other treatments the doctor orders.
Saturday & Sunday - Sleep.
"Week 2", Monday - Dave thinks about going back to work, but usually decides against it.
Rest of "Week 2" - Dave slowly returns to work, for short periods.
"Weeks 3 & 4" - Dave's appetite and energy slowly return, or not. Lymph nodes swell up, and then go down. Night sweats come and go. Various other symptoms unexpectedly appear on stage, spread a little terror, and then fade into the wings. By "Week 4" he can finally eat a little bit of tomato sauce, so he gets to have his favorite Italian and Mexican dishes once or twice, before the next round of chemo puts him back on a bland diet.
Then it's time to start the whole thing over again.
Although this is the third cycle coming up, it hasn't quite reached the point where it could be considered routine. Last month, the anemia and ProCrit injections were the big new thing we needed to adjust to. This month, who knows? If the anemia hasn't improved, he may need a blood transfusion. But I can tell you what I'll be doing first thing Monday morning - fighting with the HMO over Dave's medication coverage. Theoretically, his insurance has drug coverage, with a $10 co-pay. In practice, they seem to make exceptions to that plan whenever they feel like it (sometimes they charge $28, sometimes $65 - if there's any rhyme or reason to these figures, I haven't discovered it. And he's on 5 prescription drugs - so far.) The latest problem is the Famciclovir - a drug that fights viral infections. Dave has been taking it since the first day he started treatment, and he is expected to be on it for the next 6 months, maybe longer. This is a life-or-death kind of medication. He called the HMO pharmacy last Thursday, per their policy, to notify them that he had 24 hours supply left. They said he had no refills ordered. Wrong. Twenty-four hours later (on Friday), he had no Famciclovir left, and we were still arguing with the pharmacy. So Dave went to the Oncology clinic and talked to one of the nurses. Dave's doctor wasn't available, but the nurse got another doctor to write a new prescription for the Famciclovir, then he went back downstairs to the pharmacy. After the usual eternity in the waiting room, his name came up on the board, and he went to the counter, where they told him his drug was ready - and he owed them $462! He argued, he pleaded, but they were unmoved. Of course, by now, the clinic was closed for the weekend, so he came home without it.
After I got the news, I spent the next few hours thinking I was going to be a widow sooner rather than later, but eventually I got past it. We hunkered down for the weekend, in extreme infection-avoidance mode. Tomorrow I go into warrior mode.
Stay tuned . . .
(Image is "Kali" - a painting I did in 1996.)
Sunday, June 24, 2007
An Introduction to Dave's CLL
People keep asking me Dave's diagnosis, Leukemia in general, and the whole cancer-of-the-blood/immune-system ball of wax. So here's the story, as I understand it, so far. (Any of my medical friends who notice factual errors - please point them out, thanks.)
White Blood Cells (WBCs) are Leukocytes, which is where the "Leuk" in "Leukemia" comes from. These cells are made in the bone marrow and circulate around the body doing their jobs. The root of the problem in Leukemia is in the bone marrow, where the cells are made.
There are several sub-categories of WBCs. Think of them as your body's military & law enforcement, and the different sub-categories are branches of the Military. WBCs normally make up about 1% of the "population" of cells in your blood. Most people recognize the need for a military, but you wouldn't want to see too many of them, getting into our daily lives. Most war zones are giant models of Leukemia in action.
Red Blood Cells are the long-haul truckers, carrying vital stuff back and forth around the whole body. Platelets are the construction workers, and highway maintenance crews, fixing the infrastructure. These guys are often part of the collateral damage when the WBCs get out of control. This is the case with Dave - right now, there just aren't enough truckers or maintenance crews to keep up with demand.
The different branches of the White Blood Cell (military) are:
Dave has CLL, or Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. "Leukemia" just means too many white blood cells. "Lymphocytic" means that it's the Lymphocytes which are getting out of control. There are so many of them, that they are interfering with the other blood cells, including the other kinds of white blood cells (like the Neutrophils.) Furthermore, they are dysfunctional Lymphocytes, so they're not even doing their own jobs very well.
Not enough Neutrophils is called Neutropenia. Without his "first responder" Neutrophils, Dave is particularly vulnerable to bacterial & fungal infections. His dysfunctional Lymphocytes leave him vulnerable to viruses. These dysfunctional Lymphocytes are hard to stop, harder to remove. (More about treatment, down the page.)
OK, so that's the general picture. But the specifics matter. If you say that someone has CLL, it's about as informative as saying that they have a feline pet. You were thinking, maybe tabby cat, but what about the guy who had a 400 lb Bengal tiger in his NY city apartment? There are many different kinds of CLL, and they differ according to the nature and degree of the Lymphocyte dysfunction. There may be chromosome abnormalities and/or immunoglobulin mutations that distinguish more aggressive and less aggressive forms of the disease. Some people can live for decades with CLL, and they only need occasional chemotherapy pills to keep it in line. Other people require the most radical treatments in order to survive for a couple of years.
Then there's the staging. CLL is a cancer (meaning uncontrolled growth of a cloned cell, in this case a B-cell lymphocyte) and all cancers are staged, by assigning a number between 0 and 4, indicating the progression of the disease. Higher numbers indicate a more dire situation.
I do know that Dave is Stage 3, but, I don't know the status of his chromosome abnormalities and immunoglobulin mutations. I'm pretty sure they ran the tests, but I can't get anyone to tell me the results. I do know that they put him on a "shock and awe" regimen of pretty high-powered chemo drugs. His oncologist went on vacation right after Dave started chemo, and the guy who's covering doesn't seem to want to share much info. So I'm waiting for the main doc to return.
Chemotherapy is the most common tactic used against the dysfunctional Lymphocytes, and that's what Dave is getting. But Chemo is like a nuclear bomb. Chemotherapy drugs cause tremendous collateral damage, taking out large numbers of all the other, different kinds of blood cells (plus some of the other cells in the body, like the lining of the GI tract.) Fludarabine, which is the primary chemotherapy drug that Dave is taking, will suppress T-cells to levels as low as AIDS for as long as 2 years. Plus, chemotherapy can create the seeds of other cancers, which will manifest at some point in the future. And just like bombing Afghanistan didn't rid the world of al-Qaida, chemotherapy doesn't completely eliminate the dysfunctional Lymphocytes. After each bout of chemo, a few of them start reassembling and growing more cells, and each time they do this, they get more resistant to the drug, until finally it doesn't work. Then you have to find a new drug. How rapidly the cancer cells get resistant to chemo depends on which version of CLL Dave has, and how aggressive it is. Some get resistant in 19 months, some take 15 years. The period during which the chemo is over, the body is recovering from the fallout, and the dysfunctional Lymphocytes are plotting a return, is called "Remission."
There are other treatments besides chemotherapy.
The most radical therapy is not chemo, but bone marrow transplant, also known as a stem cell transplant. It offers the only chance, but no guarantee, of a true cure. There are at least a few different kinds of bone marrow transplant, but they all have in these things in common: the patient receives high doses of chemotherapy and total body irradiation, with the intention of killing every single white blood cell in the body. This is known as "conditioning." Then, stem cells from a closely matched donor are injected. The plan is for the donor cells to take up residence in the bone marrow, a process that may take 3 to 5 weeks. If it works, it may be a year before the immune system reaches normal levels, but if it does, and if all of the old dysfunctional cells were killed, then the cancer is really and truly gone. Of course, the "conditioning" process takes a person to the brink of death and some people fall over the brink - about 20% succumb to complications of therapy, which include massive infections, major organ failure, and secondary cancers. About 60% achieve remission lasting 2 years - I haven't been able to find numbers on longer survivals. I could be wrong on these numbers - I'm still wading through tons of material on this topic.
There's also a newer kind of transplant, called a "Mini-Transplant," that has a lower mortality, although it's still no picnic. With the "Mini," the goal of the "conditioning" is not to eliminate the entire immune system, but just enough to prevent rejection of the donated cells, and to allow a mixed population of donor and original cells to grow. The donated (healthy) T-Lymphocytes can assassinate the original cancerous cells. If the donor is a a closely matched family member, additional Lymphocyte transfusions can be given, as necessary.
Another kind of treatment for CLL is gene therapy. The goal is to trick the killer T-cells (The CIA, in our military analogy above) into targeting the cancerous B-cells. The way they do this is by removing some of the cancerous B-cells, genetically modifying the cells so that they "turn on a flashing neon sign" that signals their status. Then the modified B-cells are returned to the body, where the killer T-cells get all excited and start eliminating them, and then theoretically keep on going to eliminate the other cancer cells, too. And a similar kind of biologic treatment is monoclonal antibodies. The antibodies are made in a lab, sometimes by combining mouse and human proteins and then injected into the patient. The antibodies migrate to the B-cells and stick to them, creating a marker that signals to the killer T-cells that these particular cells need to be taken out. The obvious concern with these therapies is, what are the chances that the killer T-cells will get overly aggressive and start killing good cells? The gene therapy and monoclonal antibody therapies are still very new, not done in that many places, and I have not yet found a good source of comparison numbers for evaluating their effectiveness.
There are some interesting new clinical trials, including Radioimmunotherapy and Trojan Horses, but I'm not going to go into those now, since I still don't know about his chromosome abnormalities and immunoglobulin mutations.
Further complicating this picture is the fact that Dave had Mononucleosis (twice) in his 20s. Mono is a manifestation of the Epstein-Barr virus (EBV) which, like herpes, sticks with you for life. It hides out in the B-cell Lymphocytes, mostly under the radar, but while it was running amok, causing Mononucleosis, it very likely caused permanent damage to the T-cell Lymphocytes. This makes him exceptionally vulnerable to immunosuppressive drugs like Fludarabine & Decadron (which he's getting.) I'm hoping the doc is aware of this (yes, they were told about his mono) and has a plan for dealing with it. I'll continue to follow up, and will post the info when I get it, if any of you are still with me here, and want to know.
Adding to my worries (not Dave's - he doesn't want to know any of this stuff) are these issues:
Dave seems to be allergic to sunscreen - we've tried a few kinds now, and have not found one that he can tolerate. Not only do the chemo drugs make him more likely to suffer sun damage, but CLL patients are 10 times more vulnerable to skin cancers than the average population, and the skin cancers they get are more aggressive. So for now, we're looking at hats and walking on the shady side of the street. If you totally avoid the sun, you will likely suffer from vitamin D deficiency and, besides its well-known function in the bones, Vitamin D reduces the reproductive rate of cancer cells. So we're trying to find a good source of D3 (cholecalciferol.)
Anemia is a lack of red blood cells. Remember the long-haul truckers I mentioned near the top of this entry? Their most important cargoes are oxygen and carbon dioxide. Dave has anemia, or not enough trucks. We can speculate about the reasons - there are plenty of suspects: the over-population of dysfunctional B-cells, and the collateral damage from the chemo are probably having negative effects on the number of red blood cells. But the monster under the bed is Autoimmune Hemolytic Anemia (AIHA.) It's when the cancerous B-cells spread inaccurate information about the Red Cells, which are then targeted for elimination by the killer T-cells or the Macrophages. About 15% of CLL patients develop AIHA. It's scary and harder to control that the other causes of anemia. We hope it's not that, but we don't know at this point. So, for now, we're trying ProCrit, a drug to encourage his bone marrow to make more red blood cells. Honestly, they're not expecting much improvement - they just hope to keep his anemia from getting any worse. If it does get any worse, he'll need blood transfusions, because you have to have red blood cells to keep breathing, thinking, living.
Richter’s transformation, an aggressive B-cell lymphoma, can occur in CLL patients, often in response to a reactivation of the Epstein Barr virus (EBV). The EBV is usually kept under control by the T-cells, but many CLL treatments, including Fludarabine, repress the T-cells. This syndrome is sometimes called "diffuse large cell lymphoma." It's not common - it occurs in about 10% of CLL patients, but the prognosis is very poor - less than one year.
Believe it or not - that's a simplified version of the things I've learned in the last few weeks. I've found the CLL Topics site to be the most helpful in my search for information. They have an extensive catalog of articles related to CLL, and it's written in everyday English. You can start there and then branch out to other sites, once you've gotten the correct terminology down, and once you know what you're looking for.
White Blood Cells (WBCs) are Leukocytes, which is where the "Leuk" in "Leukemia" comes from. These cells are made in the bone marrow and circulate around the body doing their jobs. The root of the problem in Leukemia is in the bone marrow, where the cells are made.
There are several sub-categories of WBCs. Think of them as your body's military & law enforcement, and the different sub-categories are branches of the Military. WBCs normally make up about 1% of the "population" of cells in your blood. Most people recognize the need for a military, but you wouldn't want to see too many of them, getting into our daily lives. Most war zones are giant models of Leukemia in action.
Red Blood Cells are the long-haul truckers, carrying vital stuff back and forth around the whole body. Platelets are the construction workers, and highway maintenance crews, fixing the infrastructure. These guys are often part of the collateral damage when the WBCs get out of control. This is the case with Dave - right now, there just aren't enough truckers or maintenance crews to keep up with demand.
The different branches of the White Blood Cell (military) are:
Neutrophils (Army, Navy, & Air Force) - the first responders, the grunts. They go after bacteria and fungi. They make up 65% of the WBC military. They take large casualties at the site of conflicts, and their dead bodies are the main component of pus.
Lymphocytes (FBI & the CIA) - They infiltrate other cells in the body, looking for terrorists (intracellular pathogens and viruses) and organized crime (cancer.) They also carry out assassinations on wacko cells. They are the second-largest category, and usually make up about 25% of the WBCs. There are two sub-categories of Lymphocytes: B-cells & T-cells. In CLL (Dave's cancer,) it's the B-cells that are causing the problems. More about them later.
Basophils & Eosinophils (IRS, ATF, & EPA enforcement) - Small number of specialized cells that focus on parasites and allergens.
Monocytes & Macrophages (MPs and interrogators) - Besides ordinary defensive activities, these cells also gather information on the enemy when they take them into custody, and then this information is passed along to the Lymphocytes, who use it to tailor specific defenses.
Dave has CLL, or Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. "Leukemia" just means too many white blood cells. "Lymphocytic" means that it's the Lymphocytes which are getting out of control. There are so many of them, that they are interfering with the other blood cells, including the other kinds of white blood cells (like the Neutrophils.) Furthermore, they are dysfunctional Lymphocytes, so they're not even doing their own jobs very well.
Not enough Neutrophils is called Neutropenia. Without his "first responder" Neutrophils, Dave is particularly vulnerable to bacterial & fungal infections. His dysfunctional Lymphocytes leave him vulnerable to viruses. These dysfunctional Lymphocytes are hard to stop, harder to remove. (More about treatment, down the page.)
OK, so that's the general picture. But the specifics matter. If you say that someone has CLL, it's about as informative as saying that they have a feline pet. You were thinking, maybe tabby cat, but what about the guy who had a 400 lb Bengal tiger in his NY city apartment? There are many different kinds of CLL, and they differ according to the nature and degree of the Lymphocyte dysfunction. There may be chromosome abnormalities and/or immunoglobulin mutations that distinguish more aggressive and less aggressive forms of the disease. Some people can live for decades with CLL, and they only need occasional chemotherapy pills to keep it in line. Other people require the most radical treatments in order to survive for a couple of years.
Then there's the staging. CLL is a cancer (meaning uncontrolled growth of a cloned cell, in this case a B-cell lymphocyte) and all cancers are staged, by assigning a number between 0 and 4, indicating the progression of the disease. Higher numbers indicate a more dire situation.
I do know that Dave is Stage 3, but, I don't know the status of his chromosome abnormalities and immunoglobulin mutations. I'm pretty sure they ran the tests, but I can't get anyone to tell me the results. I do know that they put him on a "shock and awe" regimen of pretty high-powered chemo drugs. His oncologist went on vacation right after Dave started chemo, and the guy who's covering doesn't seem to want to share much info. So I'm waiting for the main doc to return.
Chemotherapy is the most common tactic used against the dysfunctional Lymphocytes, and that's what Dave is getting. But Chemo is like a nuclear bomb. Chemotherapy drugs cause tremendous collateral damage, taking out large numbers of all the other, different kinds of blood cells (plus some of the other cells in the body, like the lining of the GI tract.) Fludarabine, which is the primary chemotherapy drug that Dave is taking, will suppress T-cells to levels as low as AIDS for as long as 2 years. Plus, chemotherapy can create the seeds of other cancers, which will manifest at some point in the future. And just like bombing Afghanistan didn't rid the world of al-Qaida, chemotherapy doesn't completely eliminate the dysfunctional Lymphocytes. After each bout of chemo, a few of them start reassembling and growing more cells, and each time they do this, they get more resistant to the drug, until finally it doesn't work. Then you have to find a new drug. How rapidly the cancer cells get resistant to chemo depends on which version of CLL Dave has, and how aggressive it is. Some get resistant in 19 months, some take 15 years. The period during which the chemo is over, the body is recovering from the fallout, and the dysfunctional Lymphocytes are plotting a return, is called "Remission."
There are other treatments besides chemotherapy.
The most radical therapy is not chemo, but bone marrow transplant, also known as a stem cell transplant. It offers the only chance, but no guarantee, of a true cure. There are at least a few different kinds of bone marrow transplant, but they all have in these things in common: the patient receives high doses of chemotherapy and total body irradiation, with the intention of killing every single white blood cell in the body. This is known as "conditioning." Then, stem cells from a closely matched donor are injected. The plan is for the donor cells to take up residence in the bone marrow, a process that may take 3 to 5 weeks. If it works, it may be a year before the immune system reaches normal levels, but if it does, and if all of the old dysfunctional cells were killed, then the cancer is really and truly gone. Of course, the "conditioning" process takes a person to the brink of death and some people fall over the brink - about 20% succumb to complications of therapy, which include massive infections, major organ failure, and secondary cancers. About 60% achieve remission lasting 2 years - I haven't been able to find numbers on longer survivals. I could be wrong on these numbers - I'm still wading through tons of material on this topic.
There's also a newer kind of transplant, called a "Mini-Transplant," that has a lower mortality, although it's still no picnic. With the "Mini," the goal of the "conditioning" is not to eliminate the entire immune system, but just enough to prevent rejection of the donated cells, and to allow a mixed population of donor and original cells to grow. The donated (healthy) T-Lymphocytes can assassinate the original cancerous cells. If the donor is a a closely matched family member, additional Lymphocyte transfusions can be given, as necessary.
Another kind of treatment for CLL is gene therapy. The goal is to trick the killer T-cells (The CIA, in our military analogy above) into targeting the cancerous B-cells. The way they do this is by removing some of the cancerous B-cells, genetically modifying the cells so that they "turn on a flashing neon sign" that signals their status. Then the modified B-cells are returned to the body, where the killer T-cells get all excited and start eliminating them, and then theoretically keep on going to eliminate the other cancer cells, too. And a similar kind of biologic treatment is monoclonal antibodies. The antibodies are made in a lab, sometimes by combining mouse and human proteins and then injected into the patient. The antibodies migrate to the B-cells and stick to them, creating a marker that signals to the killer T-cells that these particular cells need to be taken out. The obvious concern with these therapies is, what are the chances that the killer T-cells will get overly aggressive and start killing good cells? The gene therapy and monoclonal antibody therapies are still very new, not done in that many places, and I have not yet found a good source of comparison numbers for evaluating their effectiveness.
There are some interesting new clinical trials, including Radioimmunotherapy and Trojan Horses, but I'm not going to go into those now, since I still don't know about his chromosome abnormalities and immunoglobulin mutations.
Further complicating this picture is the fact that Dave had Mononucleosis (twice) in his 20s. Mono is a manifestation of the Epstein-Barr virus (EBV) which, like herpes, sticks with you for life. It hides out in the B-cell Lymphocytes, mostly under the radar, but while it was running amok, causing Mononucleosis, it very likely caused permanent damage to the T-cell Lymphocytes. This makes him exceptionally vulnerable to immunosuppressive drugs like Fludarabine & Decadron (which he's getting.) I'm hoping the doc is aware of this (yes, they were told about his mono) and has a plan for dealing with it. I'll continue to follow up, and will post the info when I get it, if any of you are still with me here, and want to know.
Adding to my worries (not Dave's - he doesn't want to know any of this stuff) are these issues:
Dave seems to be allergic to sunscreen - we've tried a few kinds now, and have not found one that he can tolerate. Not only do the chemo drugs make him more likely to suffer sun damage, but CLL patients are 10 times more vulnerable to skin cancers than the average population, and the skin cancers they get are more aggressive. So for now, we're looking at hats and walking on the shady side of the street. If you totally avoid the sun, you will likely suffer from vitamin D deficiency and, besides its well-known function in the bones, Vitamin D reduces the reproductive rate of cancer cells. So we're trying to find a good source of D3 (cholecalciferol.)
Anemia is a lack of red blood cells. Remember the long-haul truckers I mentioned near the top of this entry? Their most important cargoes are oxygen and carbon dioxide. Dave has anemia, or not enough trucks. We can speculate about the reasons - there are plenty of suspects: the over-population of dysfunctional B-cells, and the collateral damage from the chemo are probably having negative effects on the number of red blood cells. But the monster under the bed is Autoimmune Hemolytic Anemia (AIHA.) It's when the cancerous B-cells spread inaccurate information about the Red Cells, which are then targeted for elimination by the killer T-cells or the Macrophages. About 15% of CLL patients develop AIHA. It's scary and harder to control that the other causes of anemia. We hope it's not that, but we don't know at this point. So, for now, we're trying ProCrit, a drug to encourage his bone marrow to make more red blood cells. Honestly, they're not expecting much improvement - they just hope to keep his anemia from getting any worse. If it does get any worse, he'll need blood transfusions, because you have to have red blood cells to keep breathing, thinking, living.
Richter’s transformation, an aggressive B-cell lymphoma, can occur in CLL patients, often in response to a reactivation of the Epstein Barr virus (EBV). The EBV is usually kept under control by the T-cells, but many CLL treatments, including Fludarabine, repress the T-cells. This syndrome is sometimes called "diffuse large cell lymphoma." It's not common - it occurs in about 10% of CLL patients, but the prognosis is very poor - less than one year.
Believe it or not - that's a simplified version of the things I've learned in the last few weeks. I've found the CLL Topics site to be the most helpful in my search for information. They have an extensive catalog of articles related to CLL, and it's written in everyday English. You can start there and then branch out to other sites, once you've gotten the correct terminology down, and once you know what you're looking for.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
The Waiting Room
Thinking that I was suffering from a lack of meditation time, I decided recently to eschew reading material and use my time in the Oncology waiting room in quiet reflection. Bad idea. Not doing that again. Even People magazine would be better . . . well, maybe not.
It was very quiet, and at any given time, there would only be three to five people in the room, most of them staying ten minutes or less. The receptionist and I were the only ones there for the whole 70 minutes. (The receptionist, incidentally, is a goddess. Mature, womanly, all-knowing, awe-inspiring, a source of comfort and fear.)
After an undetermined time of focused breathing, I became hyper-aware of the people passing through and they nearly broke my heart.
A couple of young men came alone, but everyone else had company. All ages and genders. Some were jauntily whistling in the dark, while others stared morosely into the abyss. An old guy with his Latina caretaker sidled his wheelchair up to the receptionist's desk and cracked jokes. A young Asian woman (bald, wearing a body brace like Sachiko's) walked in slowly and then gingerly lowered herself into a chair, as if her body was made of the thinnest blown glass. Her husband sprawled across three seats on the opposite side of the room and talked on his cell phone while folding and unfolding his arms and legs.
A forty-something woman, with her teenage daughter, sat on my deaf side. They were having an urgent conversation but the mother was trying to be discreet and when she opened her mouth all I could hear was the sound of dry leaves on the wind. The daughter was more audible:
"How much more aggressive can I be? I went to Physical Therapy six times, to Urgent Care three times, to the Emergency Room . . . I'm not a nurse or a doctor - if they say I should get this treatment first, what can I say? ... They say they won't pay for it unless it's an emergency. Isn't this an emergency? My life is at stake. I don't know . . . I don't know how it works."
And so on, like sitting near the ocean, while waves of emotion crash up and then recede. And knowing that I was a wave, too.
(Some of us like just watch the waves, some of us get wet. Photo of a skimboarder was taken at Ocean Beach in SF, on a warm day in January '07, © Anna L. Conti)
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
1,623 Dollars
I guess the oncology pharmacist must have gotten out of the wrong side of bed this morning. First she forgot to get Dave's chemo ready, leaving him sitting in the infusion chair, with an IV running, for over an hour before the nurse was able to start the infusions (which took another hour and a half.) Then, when the nurse told me to go to the pharmacy to get his Procrit (the Erythropoietin mentioned yesterday) the pharmacist was incredibly rude; first pointedly ignoring me, then emphasizing the fact that this drug cost $1,623, so I "should be grateful" that Dave's insurance covers most of it. She circled the $1,623 on the receipt, then tapped it twice with her pen before charging me $25 for the drug, plus $3.55 for the syringes to inject it. She was too cheap to give me a few alcohol swabs. Do I feel grateful? I haven't decided yet. So far, they're charging us $200 to $300 per month for various co-pay expenses. Nevermind the thousands of dollars they've already collected in monthly premiums over the last TWELVE years.
I'll be giving Dave these injections at home, and the nurse supervised me giving him his first injection after his infusion was done. Then we went to lunch.
That's Dave, above, after I handed him the pharmacy bag and told him what it cost.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
We Have Wheels
Due to a truly unfortunate situation, I have been able to drive Dave to and from the hospital this week. Last week, I was worrying about how to talk Dave out of taking the bus to his chemo treatments. But now, with a lovely comfortable car sitting in the driveway, and with me awake, dressed, and ready to drive him there, it's been an easy sell.
I feel grateful, guilty, happy and sad in equal measures.
Here's what happened: our friend, Joyce, who has been a real support in this whole adventure, drove over to visit last Thursday. She mentioned that she was thinking of buying a bicycle. I have one I'm not using, so I said, "Just take mine." She got on it to try it out, fell off a few minutes later, and broke both wrists. Seriously. Surgery and a cast on the left, a splint on the right. She lives alone. Think about that for a few minutes. What would you do if you suddenly couldn't use either of your hands? So her car is still in my driveway and she said I may as well use it. But every time I start thinking, "Gee this is a nice car, it's so convenient, I can see why people get addicted to these things," I get an immediate pang of, "Oh my gawd, Joyce is suffering, why did I ever open my mouth about that bike," and I get an image of her crashing into the street, and I get a sick feeling in my stomach.
(Image is "Cadillac," a watercolor painting by Robert Townsend, currently at the Hespe Gallery in SF.)
Good Lab results
Good news today. The lab work shows that Dave's white blood count is down to 8,500 (nearly normal) from his pre-chemo level of 43,000. Unfortunately, his red blood cells were also whacked by the chemo and he was anemic before they started. It's amazing to me that he can get around as well as he does, with a Hgb/Hct of only 7.5/21.8 (less than half what it should be.) We parked about 2.5 blocks from the hospital, some of it an uphill walk, and he just kept on puffing up the street, with no complaints.
(We could have parked in the garage directly under the hospital, but it's about 6 stories below ground; dark, cramped, hot, with a constant, loud thrum. It gives me the heebie-jeebies, and at each bend in the ramp, I keep expecting to see the gates of Hell. Dave has kindly agreed to avoid it when I'm with him.)
Anyway, back to tomorrow's chemo - another round of Fludarabine, Mitoxantrone and Decadron. And the new addition: Erythropoietin, which is supposed to "encourage" his bone marrow to start making red blood cells.
The doc wasn't too concerned about Dave's swollen lymph nodes, saying that they were full of dead cancer cells, and would shrink soon.
So, we're feeling cautiously optimistic today.
(Photo is unidentified lab tech from 1950s, via NCSU library.)
Monday, June 18, 2007
Catch Up
Well, it's been a while since I updated things here, hasn't it? Sorry about that. There's no particular reason - I've just been dropping the ball on some things lately. I'll try to catch up now . . .
Today is the official start of the second round of Dave's chemo. He went for lab work today, which is (partly) how the doctors will evaluate the first round of this course of treatment. We talk to the oncologist tomorrow, then the drugs start on Wednesday.
He's in a very upbeat mood, and so far, the side effects haven't been too bad. (He's had three weeks to recover from the first round.) The fatigue persists; his skin is clearing up; his lymph nodes are quite swollen, and are causing some discomfort.
We're both a little nervous about the upcoming week. Not so much about the chemo itself, but more about the lab results and doctor's evaluation.
(photo is "Harrison Webster running to catch up" by Jason Molenda)
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